||[Jul. 25th, 2008|04:34 pm]
The summer's almost over, with less than a month and a third left. As you all may not know, I am currently a senior-to-be come this fall. Today I got consent papers, schedules, and registration forms from my school. I was looking through them and I didn't realize I had held my breath for a while, so I exhaled deeply. The idea of being a senior is terrifying to me, at least. I had been dreaming for this to come ever since I figured out which year my classmates and I were going to graduate, and that was in 5th grade. It makes me want to plant myself in high school and never leave. But at the same time, I'm excited about going into the real world (as if it isn't more real enough already) and attending college. For the past three years, my grades always had been ailing to the point where my teachers and my mother would admonish, "Grades like that aren't going to get you into college." "You'll be working in the back of McDonald's, just like I used to." "You're a smart kid, and everybody knows that." Of course, it scared the shit out of me knowing there was a possibility of me ending up like my mother; having a baby at 17 and declining college acceptances, raising the kid in a run-down house with a crapaholic boyfriend. (That was how it went down for my mother during the '90s). But none of those things have had happened, and I pray to God it doesn't. Looking back on the past 3 years of my high school, I admit I have been lousy with my schoolwork and organization. But this time, this year I'm going to step it up a notch and prove everybody I can graduate with flying colors (and good grades as well). I have come to the point where athletics just doesn't make my grades any better, instead they pull them down. I never really viewed myself as an athletic person anymore. I suck at basketball and volleyball. But I was great in track/field and cheerleading. I know almost everyone says that playing sports will make themselves look good for colleges to see, that is true but I can succeed with a good education without the sweaty parts. I have only gotten on Honor Roll once in high school, and it sounds bad to have that on my transcript. My goal this year is to try and maintain at least a 3.5 GPA for 4 quarters. I'm usually not a A+ student, I was always a B student. That can change for the better, though. I have been lackadaisical lately with my Algebra I practice. I had taken Algebra I twice and barely passed, and I passed Geometry with a very slim chance. Now I'm dreading Algebra 2, and math has not always been my best subject EVER. The Basic Standards Test- in Minnesota (600 is mandatory for an eligible passing score), I passed english/reading with a score of 642 for the first time. A level of 3.5 for my writing/comprehensions test for the first time with flying colors. As for the math test... I failed miserably for more than 6 or 7 times since my freshman year. I always was 10-12 points under 600. I'm not the best student with manageable grades among my classmates but I do try my hardest to be. I hope my last year of high school will turn out to be one of the best years I've ever had.|
There. I feel better splurging it all out on my journal.